sometimes i lay awake at night worrying that i am letting billy down. lately i've had such a hard time getting any play time in because of my darned foot, then i got the flu, it's been so hot and buggy making play time miserable. and on and on and on. all these excuses. they keep me up at night.
i think about all that we have to do before i can ride him. at this rate i won't be on his back until he is 10 and i'm 45!!
then that sends me back to the fact that i can not get all caught up in the "shoulds" of life. what i should do compared to what i am doing. nothing that i'm doing right now, allowing billy to grow up some more, eat yummy green grass, chase his goats, is hurting him. not at all!
i'll ride him when i ride him. i sat on him two days ago and he was totally fine with it. we have come so far in our horsemanship and have a long way to go, but again, i remind myself that we don't have a timeline.
i like to look back at pictures i've taken of billy over the years that i've had him. it's amazing how much he has changed, grown up, started to really muscle up. i can see by his build that he has a bit more filling out to do and i have some weight to lose. giving each other a bit more time is a great idea.
we will work on making our better best!